Not expecting to grow
flowers in the desert…
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| I haven't seen these in the store yet |
8:45? How was that
only an 8:45?
These were my first thoughts as I had just finished my first
mile of 33 in the 2013 AZ Ragnar Trail Relay.
It was about 3:30 in the afternoon and it was hot, very hot and dry. Moments earlier, I was at the start line with
what appeared to be a pretty fit and experienced group of (mostly young) trail runners. I had no idea why they put the 4 of us in
this group. I was hoping to start with
the teams in the Super Hero capes, floppy hats, and big wigs. Who's idea was this anyway?
| Home Sweet Home |
The race was our first Ragnar Trail relay. I had organized our team for this event made up of me and three Dave's. A few of us had run several other Ragnar relay's but
this was different for a couple reasons: (1) it was entirely on trails that looped back to
a starting point as opposed to the point-to-point following-in-a-van that is
the make-up most regular Ragnars. (2) We decided, or I guess I decided, to run
this race as an ultra-team instead of a regular team. That simply meant that
instead of having eight runners split the 132 miles, we had only four. What we did, was essentially double up all of
our runs. So instead of just running one loop and handing off to our partner
for example, we would finish the first loop and then run another one before we handed
off our belt to our next runner. This took
the average distance from about 5.5 to around 11 miles each time out, but we
would only have to go out 3 times. Yes, I really talked 3 other people into this.
Theoretically, the thought of running 33 miles, with breaks,
over 24 hours, didn't sound easy but also didn't seem overly intimidating. I’m training for a marathon where I routinely
do 20 mile long runs so what’s a couple of extra miles right? What I forgot to factor in (again) is that
trail running is nothing like road running especially when the terrain is not
flat and there is a significant heat component.
Each loop left from the same start/finish line and went out
into the desert. The first two loops, designated as the green loop and the yellow loop
were each about 4.5 miles and were fairly technical with lots of switchbacks,
ridges, and tricky terrain. The third loop was over 7.5 miles but had far less
technical terrain. None of them were flat, at least by Illinois standards.
| It's all smiles before the running starts. |
It took me a good 30 to 40 minutes to recover from the run
but once I sat in the shade for a while I did recover. I even felt good enough
to open a celebratory beer with Dave #2 later that afternoon. Essentially when you finish
your loop you have about six hours before you have to run again. The race was
serving a nice pasta dinner which was timed really well for me and the second
runner to enjoy a somewhat normal dinner that evening. Pasta and beer; just another Friday night.
Sometime Around Midnight
The food and the rest reinvigorated me and I was really
looking forward to my next loop (or actually two loops). With the desert sun long since set, the
temperatures dropping into the 50s, and the moon illuminating the course; I was
ready.
I mentioned that the red loop was the least technical and
that was my next loop to run. It made for an amazing midnight run. My pace felt
swift (especially compared to earlier), the trail was clear, and my ability to
pass some runners increased my confidence. Most of the time all I heard was the sound of my
breathing, and my footsteps on the stones.
Occasionally I would see a headlamp ahead indicating I was getting closer
to another runner. As I mentioned it was
a full moon, and when I got to higher ground it looked like the entire desert
was glowing in the dark. The sand and rocks seem to be illuminated and the
cactus along the trail that was lighter in color almost seemed like they had
small LED bulbs in them. Occasionally, I would pass someone, or someone would
pass me; offer a greeting and then they would disappear into the desert. It was very peaceful and was by far my
favorite run.
The second loop was back on the green trail and while it's
not overly technical there are a number of switchbacks and small fast rises and
descents that require focus and concentration. And of the 4.6 miles I had
really good concentration for the first 4.2. Unfortunately, I picked a bad
moment to glance down at my watch, stepped wrong, and ended up face first on
the desert floor. It was stupid. All I needed to do is just keep watching my
steps for another 5 minutes and I would have been fine. But now I was scraped up, bruised, and
bleeding with thankfully only another half a mile to run.
I finished my run, handed off to our next runner and tried
to wash off the scrapes and headed back to the tent. By now it was nearly 1 in the morning and most of the campsites were beginning to slow down. At this
point all of my nutrition and hydration smarts disappeared. I should have
eaten, and been continuously drinking water if nothing else but somehow between
the fall, and the late hour, and the fact that we had brought all the wrong
foods, I just lay in my tent and ate a granola bar.
There was something very peaceful but also a bit frustrating
about the night. I listened as the other runners came in, nobody really seemed
capable of sleeping, even as tired as we were.
I was hungry, but didn't have the energy or idea of where I could get
more food. The campsite behind us,
obviously was way more prepared. Each time their runner would come back, someone
would ask them: "Would you like a bean quesadilla? You want chicken or salmon
with that?” I heard at one point. “Chicken
or salmon? “ I thought. “WTH? I would
give my left arm for a quesadilla." But instead I just rolled over and ate another granola bar.
In never did fall asleep.
I started my third, and final run shortly after dawn. The sun was not
yet high in the sky but it was already hot, and I was more dehydrated than I
knew, and I was very low on energy. There was a lot more walking on these two
loops. For the first time, I found myself becoming a bit bitter. Of course it was my decision to run this as an
ultra-team but I couldn't help but feel jealous and resentful when I would see
someone finishing their loop and handing off to a fresh partner knowing that I
had to head out for another 7 miles. Every time I was passed; I thought “must
be nice to only be on mile 10 for the whole day”. I know, not exactly sporting
of me, but I plead temporary insanity. But hey, I finished and I didn’t trip
anyone. ;-)
Despair
So now it's nine o'clock in the morning on Saturday, I finished
my 33 miles, I haven't peed in 12 hours, and all I have left to eat is granola
bars (if I can find them). There was a food truck at the campsite but it
immediately sold out of almost everything so I considered myself lucky to be
able to order a breakfast burrito minus the burrito (which they had run out of).
I think it was a bunch of eggs and
potatoes but it was the first real food I had eaten in over 12 hours. At this point between the fatigue from running
as well as not having slept the “despair filter” began to cover everything. I just wanted to
go home, take a shower, eat an entire
pizza by myself, then fall asleep with my head using the cardboard box as a
pillow.
I was also beginning to get very worried that our team was not
going to be able to finish. Even though I thought I was in good condition at the start; I was in bad shape by now and after Dave #1 ran he was so exhausted he literally could not stay awake. (I knew he wasn't dead though because he
snored.) I felt bad for him since he
had eaten nothing so I went to the (new) food truck to buy him hot dogs. He fell asleep before I could bring them back
to the tent. So I just left them in the tent figuring that he would eat them
when he woke up (he did). (Sort of like leaving raw meat in the lion cage when
the lion is asleep.)
By the time it was our 4th runners (and third Dave) turn, we were way behind our expected pace and so we were back into the heat of
the day. All I kept thinking about was that this was my stupid idea and it would be my responsibility to inform the next of kin that somebody had
collapsed in the desert. I had a conversation with Dave #3 as he got ready to
start his final two loops and I asked him three different times if he was sure
he was okay to do this. He said he was.
He also promised if he felt dizzy he would pull off the course immediately. I told him to walk early and often and wished him well.
| Post Race Recovery |
So with some amazing efforts by all 3 Dave's who had to run their final runs in the heat of the day, we all survived and we were able to
finish. Considering two other runners on our team have no ultra-experience and none of us
were very acclimated to the desert conditions I was really happy with how
things worked out. And after showers, a
massive pizza, and 11 hours of near coma-like sleep I really felt pretty good
the next day.
| Yes, I ate almost this whole thing by myself after the race. The middle is a stuffed calzone. Note the fork to show scale. :-) |
Epilogue
Would I do it again? Yeah I would, but I think I might have
to find some new runners to fill out the team. J Maybe I could find 3 guys named Steve next time. What would I do differently? Well, at
least for my ability, if you want to have fun, run with a full team, not as an ultra-team. An ultra-team is fun for the challenge, but I
thought it was pretty tough 24 hours. There
were a lot of other teams where the beer/Gatorade ratio was way higher than our
team. Also, if I did run again as an
ultra-team, it would really be helpful to have a non-runner in charge of the
camp. It would have been great to have somebody who's not completely
exhausted to: prepare food, tell you when to eat, what to eat, what to drink,
and to generally help set up and take down the tent and campsite. The last
thing I wanted to do in the heat of Saturday afternoon after running 33 miles
and not sleeping was to pull down the entire tent, pack up the campsite, and
haul all the equipment and gear to the car.
| Our neighbors |
It's taken me two races, but now I think I will finally
remember how much more difficult trail running is than road racing. It's almost
as if I should just throw away my watch as soon as I get on the trail. I think
it would be far less frustrating and more enjoyable. That being said, when I
just relaxed and enjoyed where I was running; it’s really hard to compete with the setting
and the experience.
The race was well-organized although the camps were too
close together for my liking. If you're expecting a chance to be by yourself in
the great outdoors, this is not that. But if you like being together with a lot
of like-minded trail runners it really is a lot of fun. We had a great campsite,
met some very nice people, and the campsite was a great part of the experience.
Final Thoughts
I'm always trying to consider the line between taking appropriate risks and taking stupid chances. Despite some dicey moments, I think we stayed on the right side of the line with this race. As usually occurs with these kinds of things; the memory gets better the further away from the event I get.
Sometimes it’s the things that don’t go 100% according to plan that are the most fulfilling and challenging. There’s also something to be said about doing something where there’s a reasonable chance of failure. I get a lot of energy from that; especially when it’s in the rear view mirror.
Sometimes it’s the things that don’t go 100% according to plan that are the most fulfilling and challenging. There’s also something to be said about doing something where there’s a reasonable chance of failure. I get a lot of energy from that; especially when it’s in the rear view mirror.

